Archive | March 2012

Simple Woman’s Daybook #4

FOR TODAY

Outside my window…
The sun is shining brightly, squirrels are starting to mill around, and there are the flowers starting to pop out. I see many daffodils and hyacinths are being sneaky and saying hello. Don’t be shy, little flower, I love you!
I am thinking…
Sweet! Tasty ham!
I am thankful…
Despite my short-term baseness from my altar, it appears there are no hard feelings. Hooray!
In¬†the kitchen…
Did I mention the delicious ham? Also, mashed potatoes.
I am wearing…
Just a white summer dress. ūüôā
I am creating…
Probably painting my new D&D minis today. And working on my druid / ranger half-elf.
I am going…
Likely nowhere today, because I like to boldly go absolutely nowhere.
I am wondering…
Why my new pet is so adorable!!! ‚̧
I am reading…
Going to try re-reading the “Princes of Ireland” ; it’s a fantastic book and I love it.
I am hoping…
That tips are nice ; when I left work the other day the tip jar had been stuffed full over three times. Also, we sold over a thousand empanadas, meaning that everybody gets a bonus to their checks. Yay!
I am looking forward to…
Seeing le boyfriend tomorrow, and hanging out with le best friend.
I am learning…
Studying babies! Still thinking on that idea of being a midwife. (Non-nurse; doing home deliveries or water-births.)
Around the house…
Just me & the cats and the new mouse today. Dad is back from China or wherever he went. I don’t ask where he goes anymore, because likely I can’t find it on a map without searching for a minute.
I am pondering…
Boyfriend and I have been toying with the idea of moving to New Zealand. We already came to the idea we don’t want to live in the United States for forever. The question is where we will go.
A favorite quote for today…
“I was sad today I didnt’ wake up to (Lily). =( I was hoping to watch more Gravitation.” ~ A text message from my boyfriend!
A few plans for the rest of the week:
Prolly’ snuggling with some cats, hugging a mouse, wearing a necklace, blowing a few kisses and breaking a few hearts.
A peek into my day…
Today I am cleaning! I have laundry and dishes to do!

Also see post “My Mouse!” for a picture of my exploratory darling. I uploaded it wrong or something so it’s elsewhere.

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Day #1 – Why Paganism?

I’m joining in on the “30 Days of Paganism” blog prompt as well as the “Pagan Blog Project” and the “Simple Woman’s Daybook”. Totally thank Sanna for showing it to me on her blog, and then I found it on Nuri’s as well and decided to join up.

The first prompt is : Why paganism?

I guess at the end of the day you could thank an ex I was dating for a long time. I had some vague concepts in my head like the traditional love of the outdoors,  I could see auras and the future then, too, but my brain told me that myths were just stories, and religions were not the same.

My father’s vaguely agnostic, and I don’t think my mother could ever be bothered to care for religion or spirituality. My grandparents on both sides were Christian in some way. I went to church for a little while, and even taught bible school, but my prayers to YHWH and Jesus really felt hollow and unanswered, and I eventually figured I wasn’t supposed to be there. Not that I discount his / their existence, but I’m not supposed to be following him.

When I moved to New York I met a girl, and she was one of the vaguely Neopagan types a lot of the older pagans and reconstructionists have an intense dislike for. But I was young, and silly, and in love, so I never thought to truly call her out on some of the things she said. But even with her I always continued to look around for more information.

She said she belived in the God and the Goddess, and yet she was quite a bit of a man-hater and always was like “The Goddess this, the Goddess that”, and had this idea that all men were bastards. She also absolutely insisted she be called Wiccan even when presented with evidence that the proper names of her beliefs were otherwise.

But I learned a lot outside of her, thanks in no small part to the Gaia Online community of pagans, particularly from the M&R subforums. I always have been served well by not accepting information at face-value, much like I did with the title ‘Wiccan’. Then I learned Wicca was not the title, nor religion for me.

I prayed a little to the Goddess and the God, and even got a very noticeable response once! While accepting of my presence, they seemed to be pushing me a bit towards something else. ¬†So I honored Bast and Ra for a little while, and I tried saying hello to the Norse gods, who were like “WTF mate?”. Not that they were mean, but I wasn’t meant for them either.

So I went pure witch for a while, honoring gods without naming or specifically honoring any.

Now I worship Greek gods, and they seem to respond well, and I am happy with them. I’m not always sure I’m honoring them properly, or if I qualify as a Hellenist or just someone honoring the Twelve, but all the same, that’s how it is now.

I love the sense of community among pagans, and am totally okay with doing my research into old lores and whatnot, and putting puzzle pieces together for modern interpretation. ¬†I love the friends I have found among the large umbrella of ‘pagan’,

Simple Woman’s Daybook #3

FOR TODAY

Outside my window…
The sun is out, the squirrels are milling around, and the birds are chirping. I think it’s safe to say that Persephone is back from the Underworld.
I am thinking…
About some things a guy said that made me think that I really should add a place for Hephaesteus, and gave me a new point to approach him with.
I am thankful…
For the nice weather, obviously. Winter never really hit, which wierded me out something awful, but hopefully next winter will be more, well, wintery. Likely complete with roadside deaths, windshield wipers frozen to the car, and wind strong enough to legitimately make it difficult to move forward when the wind is against you.
In the kitchen…
Tasty grilled hummus sammiches! They were really good, and I think I’ll make them with eggplant and sauteed mushrooms next time!
I am wearing…
A gray tanktop and jeans. I’m sexy.
I am creating…
I’ve been in the mood to knit a lot, lately, so that’s what I’ve been working on. And cleaning up my altar from bits of devotional knick-knacks, like candle stubbles and incense ash. And getting some roleplay done, like usual.
I am going…
Probably nowhere today, except maybe to get a Fanta or something from Noco. I’m being a hermit today. ūüėČ
I am wondering…
Why the heck there are so many similarities between ancient Greek and ancient Norse belief systems. What the hell, guys. (Or if you’re Norse, what the Hel.)
Also, why Pete Burns ruined his perfect, androgynous David Bowie face.

I am reading…
Delicious blog posts from people I respect.
I am hoping…
Still hoping that bump on kitty’s lip isn’t an issue. She doesn’t seem to be bothered by it when I press on it, and is acting totally normal. Mom thinks it might just be cat acne. Also hoping certain prayers go through well for a certain someone finding a lady in his life. ūüėČ
I am looking forward to…
Work tomorrow, oddly. I think it’s just because I get the first decent paycheck since the crappy rainy season started and made my hours go poof!
I am learning…
To cook, sort of. At least how to cook new things. I’m not the best, but I’m cute and honest, so please forgive me!
Around the house…
Cleaned and did all of boyfriend’s and biffle’s dishes, and my own room is actually decently not destroyed and mostly in order. Also, I cleaned the bathtub, hooray!
I am pondering…
Why bank is being angry I overdrafted freaking thirteen cents.
A favorite quote for today…
‚ÄúShe listens to the voices in my head” – Combichrist’s “Through These Eyes of Pain”
One of my favorite things…
Music from the 80s, and various kinds of music that fall under the broad definition of “electronica”.
A few plans for the rest of the week:
The week is mostly over, actually! But getting laundry done, pretending I’m a badass and maybe eating my vegetables.
A peek into my day…
Dancing to this: 

Week 11 – F

I decided rather early on this week what I wanted to do for the Pagan Blog Project. I gave brief thought to ‘the Fates’ and something else, and then I thought: Foreseeing the future!

I used to do tarot, and I guess I still technically do if someone asks me to. The thing is, nobody’s asked me to in a good while, and I don’t care much to spoil the future for myself anymore than my dreams already do.

So today is a step away from all of the Greek stuff, everybody, and instead a focus on something a lot of people  practice: Divination.

There are lots of ways to divine the future, some better than others to particular people.  Popular ways are the aforementioned tarot and other cards, like oracle cards, stone cards, and I have heard tale of people using a normal deck of cards for, say, poker.

There’s also divining rods, pendulums, other swinging things on a chain, ornithomancy. I think, somewhere, people use the auras on people now to foretell the future as well, though I can’t claim to know how to use the last two at all. I do like counting birds though, which I totally picked up from Neji, a la Naruto anime.

I’ve had good success with tarot, as long as I don’t try the crazy Celtic Cross layout, which takes a good while to read, and gives a lot more input, but can lead to information overload for me. I have a friend who loves her oracle cards, and I have only one deck of those kinds of cards that I like. Pendulums are quick and appropriate to questions that need a yes / no answer, and are rather non-descript and pretty much answer on the spot.

As for foreseeing the future in dreams, I don’t know how or why, it just¬†is for me. Like the pendulum, it’s usually nothing terribly important, it just shows me a snippet of a conversation I’ll have and what people are positioned where and what they’re wearing at the time. I suppose it’s been kind enough to show me people I’ll be hanging out with in the future, like how I saw the apartment of some people I now hang out with weekly, seen before I ever even met them, and video games before they release (Skyrim did this!), but usually it’s just a generic thing. I didn’t see, for example, 9/11 or anything on the big scale, except for when one night I couldn’t see anything, but I heard a bomb go off pretty much¬†right in my ear. A couple of days later, I find out my dad’s being deployed to Afghanistan.¬†Fun. He came back pretty messed up.

But, that’s kind of tangental. I have plans of keeping track of when I have dreams that predict the future vs. how long they take to actually occur. Maybe I can mark it down to a particular moon phase, or something, I dunno. But when I have them, I even realize in the dream, as when I do in reality, when I have a sudden “I saw this happen already!” moment, but it’s stronger than deja vu.

Maybe it’s just bad meat. ūüėČ

Alternative form of divination, you could just do what JennaMarbles does, and foretell your day by what panties you’re wearing. Probably qualifies as NSFW :

Enyalios

Continuing off of last week’s post about epithets, Enyalios is about a Greek god who gets a lot of dirt kicked up about him. And, honestly, I don’t think he’d have it any other way! ūüėČ

Enyalios is an epithet of Ares, the god of war, which translates about to ‘Lord of War’. Like Loki from the Norse pantheon, some don’t like him because they feel he is evil or the devil or whatever.

Let me be absolutely and totally clear about this:¬†they’re not evil.

Someone on the Hellenismos website was even having a fit, saying he’s not worthy of worship and Athena is a better deity of war and she deserves honor and Ares deserves death and negligence.

Yes, Athena and Ares are both deities of war, though they differ in their approach to it. Using a common comparison, Athena is the general who decides where the best tactical points are, when to strike, strategic choke holds etcetera. Ares is on the battlefield with the common soldier who is putting the general’s plans into action.

Both are a part of warfare, and so you can’t say one is good and one is evil. There seems to be pretty much universal agreement that war is bad, but it has been going on since, well, probably forever. Humans aren’t the only ones that do this, either; animals fight too. It’s a natural part of how our world is.

Yes, Ares brings bloodshed, but he is not this all-evil rapist / ax-murderer / psychopath.

A story about Ares

Ares was well-known to have all sorts of love affairs, which led to the production of many offspring, over fourty children have been given a real name and many have been unnamed. One daughter was Alcippe, who, depending on which myth you go by, Poseidon’s son Halirrhotius either raped or tried to rape her. Ares, full of Papa Bear Anger ™ pretty much grabs his sword and runs outside. He finds Halirrhotus and kills him on the spot.

This leads to Areopagus later, “Ares Hill”, a little hill in Greece where Poseidon takes him to trial with Zeus as the judge, with Ares getting off scot-free from murder charges. And after Zeus has spoken, you really don’t get much choice in the matter afterwards. Because, y’know, Poseidon’s son tried to rape / raped Alcippe.

Ares is with us when adrenaline is whizzing through our veins at the speed of sound, when it becomes a fight, run, or die situation. When you just want to give up on life, Ares slaps you in the face and tells you “Get a hold of yourself, man!” He won’t put up with self-pity, and he won’t listen to you whine. He’ll hand you a sword and tell you to get up or die here alone.

Sure, he’s harsh, but he has to be.

<3, Lily.

Simple Woman’s Daybook #2

I totally stole this idea from Nuri, because I think it makes sense. A weekly devotional to Hestia, who reminds us not to worry too much about all the frustrations of daily life.

FOR TODAY

Outside my window…
One absolutely gorgeous moon!
I am thinking…
Forget Robot Chicken, give me Aqua Teen Hunger Force, or Aqua Unit Patrol Squad! (totally the same show.)
I am thankful…
Things are going incredibly well. On the Hellenismos.us website, the Greek paganism reconstructionists always say to raise your hands up to the sky when you are speaking to the Olympians, and tonight I finally decided to stop being so self conscious and to it. Now, I’m super excited and giddy, because I felt insanely connected.

Also, my bladder is misbehaving less now. I have a soft kitty.
In¬†the kitchen…
Just an oven, sitting by itself tonight.
I am wearing…
Some comfy pajamas, nothing fantastic.
I am creating…
I got a pretty little necklace at Psychic’s Thyme today; it’s a little jar, blue and it has handles on it and a cork, with the image of a bird on both sides. I loaded it with herbs, and took inventory of all the ones I have while I was at it.
I am going…
Maybe for a walk in the woods tomorrow, the weather is insanely nice.
I am wondering…
About the Norsemen, and how I might be able to help Brian out, because he’s expressing more and more interest in Odinn, Frigga, Thor and company. Ditto on teaching Cassie about how to approach Greek deities, Athena in particular. I think perhaps she feels she has to get it perfectly on the first try, which is usually hardly the case.
I am reading…
The fabulous manga ‘Wandering Son’, about some kids who are experimenting with dressing like the opposite gender. Shuichi makes such a cute girl.
I am hoping…
That the bump on kitty’s lip is nothing to worry about, and that tomorrow is as nice as it was today outside.
I am looking forward to…
My snuggly, snuggly bed, complete with a kitten.
I am learning…
About ancestor veneration! Also about Kuan Yin; Chelsea’s altar is now mostly Kemetic (Egyptian) plus Kuan Yin as a wonderous Chinese goddess tagalong.
Around the house…
I need to clean, plain and simple. But I cleaned boyfriend’s apartment today instead. ;P Which is fine by me.
I am pondering…
Why did Taco Bell get rid of the delicious Beefy Crunch Burrito? Bring it back!
A favorite quote for today…
“Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light”, or some variation thereof – Helen Keller.
One of my favorite things…
Mmm, blueberry bagel, only lightly warmed. ‚̧
A few plans for the rest of the week:
Maybe bothering Charlene and her kitties again, getting my room cleaned up, and Saturday’s D&D, as always.
A peek into my day…
Skyrim, an awesome best friend, and bothering Charlene at her shop for the second day in a row, and making my boyfriend’s life difficult purposely. ūüėÄ